I was feeling really good today and then I came across something that my husband has been hiding from me. I know we have talked before about men downloading certain pictures off the internet...well I know my husband does that and he knows that I don't like it. As long as I don't know about it, it doesn't bother me too much. He has also in the past bought magazines, videos etc, again as long as I am ignorant I'm okay. I don't pretend to believe that I can change him, all I have asked is that he keeps it away from me and away from anywhere the baby might someday stumble across it. Anyway I was looking for a blank disc and there was a certain kind of toy in one of his dressers that he uses to store his discs. I certainly wasn't snooping around looking for something like that, I pretty much know where he keeps all his stuff, magazines etc, but I was unaware he was buying stuff like this. I don't want to go into a lot of graphic detail about what it was, initially I was going to call him at work and freak out but I've calmed down a bit. Am I being too complacent about all of this? All this time I've preferred to just be ignorant and pretend it wasn't there because I think that making a big deal out of it and making him get rid of everything is probably not the best way to go. It will just make him more defensive and want the stuff. I've been hoping that he'll grow out of this kind of behaviour but it appears that it hasn't happened yet if it ever will. I can't say how long this has been there, it could have been there for awhile I can't think of the last time I looked in this drawer for anything. Still it bugs me that he has this kind of stuff.
what should I do about this? Should I just pretend I didn't see it and get over it or should I say something about it? We talked a long time ago before the baby was born and I told him I wanted him to get rid of his magazines and he hasn't yet. I don't think the baby is going to come across any of this stuff any time soon but I don't want to wait until he does at some time in the future. I feel just sick about all of this. It has completely ruined my day.