Here we go again.....Why do I do this to myself...
My mom came down to visit today. Again, no notice of my weight loss. Twenty six pounds, and no comment from her. Could it just not be noticeable? Anyway, the real kicker of the afternoon was that my sister in law was over, and my mom told HER she looked thinner (she is, she's been doing LA weight loss).
So what do I do-eat, of course. I left my mom playing with Matthew (my husband was asleep, cause he works Sunday nights) My trigger problem foods-pizza (well, two slices-at least one had broccoli on it) Then one of those toll house ice cream sandwiches...eating ice cream in NJ in March when it's been freezing out-how pathetic is that. One of those ice cream sandwiches has the calories of almost a whole meal, probably. I'm disgusted with myself. To be honest, I wasn't hungry, and it tasted disgustingly sweet. I ate it out of anger. I thought I'd made some progress with dealing with my mother and food, but I guess I haven't.
I wanted to "confess" what I ate to you guys, cause I know you'll understand.
Well, tomorrow is another day. I'll be seeing her again the end of this month for our March family birthday celebration-my mom, mother in law, husband and nephew all have March birthdays. I need to handle this better. I should be doing this for ME and no one else.