I grew up a bit spoiled and indulged, and that carried into my adult life. I was never abused or had anything bad happen to me, ever. I didn't use fat as an insulator (ha) or a guard, I was fully IN and OF the world, never hid from it or people. I was happy, loud, silly, gregarious and confident (and not the sad fat-girl fake confident). I had (and still do!!) a man that was crazy about me, no matter what size. I slowly realized the spoiled brat 5 year old in me who wanted cake NOW and had it was ruling me. I spanked her a$$ into submission and took control.
I felt I'd been blessed in this life, with far more than I deserve, so it was time to live up to it all and give my husband someone who would be around to grow old with him and not die or become a burden to him.
Life's still the same, I'm still happy and very very silly, I can just move a lot faster now