I know I have been around off and on....mostly off, and it shows on the scale. I will just say it, as painful as it is, and trust me, it is. I have gained back 17 pounds within a year. Last summer I was at my lowest of 185, and was 7 pounds away from hitting 100 pounds lost mark.
It's hard to explain what happened, but I will try. I started getting more attention to my new, more trim body, and at 185, while still obese, I thought I looked pretty good, and apparently others did too, and that SCARED me.
I would get a "Oh My, you look amazing", and men would start to flirt and look at me in ways they rarely have before....and yes, this scared me.
Of course, this is just a small issue of many. It's not secret that I emotionally eat, and I have been depressed lately, depressed that I can't hold normal relationships with the opposite sex when everyone around me can. I refuse to even be introduced to someone new cause of issues revolving me and romance. ( or lack there of )
Shoot, I even upped my physical activity, I still worked out 3-4 days a week at the gym, and took a zumba class every week. I guess I should be thankful I kept up with physical activity.
Exactly a year. Exactly 17 pounds gained. Depressed and SO ANGRY at myself for allowing this to happen. 7 freaking pounds from 100 lost and I let myself go for issues I can't even explain correctly.
I just don't know what to do anymore. But thought I'd at least get this out there and vent a bit. See if you amazing people can give me any advice or even simple words of encouragement, or at least an e-hug. I know I must change, but not sure how to when I know in order to change the outside, you have to change the inside, and I tell ya, my insides are confused and beaten up
Sometimes I feel so alone, has anyone ever gone through this before to get past it and excel at this journey of life?