Hi All,
After struggling with a regain for a while, I need to remind myself why I'm doing this.
One thing I've discovered as I go along is that I got obese because I eat due to stress. It's a horrible coping mechanism, and for almost two years, I kept the whole habit at bay, but for the last couple of months, the stress got the better of me, and I just cracked, and the old behaviors started creeping up before they blasted through full force.
So, I've discovered some of the mental tricks I use to "trick myself" into overeating and binging. But the main one is that whenever I feel "out-of-control" I'm actually making a conscious choice.
1. I can restart tomorrow.
2. I'm still pretty thin, my pants still fit...etc.
3. I'm hopelessly fat, what difference does it make?
4. I am miserable right now and this is the only thing that will help.
When I was on track, I trained myself to say NO to those four things.
I read somewhere that relapse is normal, and that as long as you keep trying you will ultimately succeed.
What I am TRYING to do is to forget all of the bad eating, put it in the past, and just carry on. I've been at this since June 2009, so almost two years, and I'm STILL down 100 lbs.
This is my mother's day present to myself. I'm reminding myself how far I have come, and patting myself on the back for still being here.