The new year is right around the corner, and it is my plan to start yet again, to lose this weight and improve my health. My anticipated start date is 1/2/03. (My husband's vacation time will be over, and we will have returned to our normal routines, which seems to be an easier situation for me to start.)
My question to you all is this ~ how do I make the things I do to achieve the weight loss a change for life ~ something I can do for the rest of my life ~ not just a temporary situation.
That seems to be where I am failing. I know what I need to do, and have succeded in doing it for a while, but then eventually fall back into old patterns and ways of thinking.
I began my journey in the fall of 1999. Joined this site early in 2000. By the summer of 2000, I had lost 40 pounds, (I was almost half way there and blew it ~ how stupid) then went on vacation, and have never been able to get my original drive back. I have started over again many times, and been yo-yoing ever since, and by now, have gained back all I lost.
I am disgusted with myself too, because I am a nurse, and I know the health risks of not losing this weight (I have high blood pressure). But this knowledge still does not make me do what I know I need to do.
How do I find a realistic way to eat? I think it is unrealistic to think that I will never have another cookie, or cake or icecream. I am lost as to how to not deny myself these things ~ be able to have them once in a while, without letting it turn into a big binge.
Sorry this is so long. I appreciate being able to share here and for any help or suggestions anyone may have.
Thank you all for listening.
Take care ~ glynne