Yes, he does know how I feel, I'm not very good at hiding my feelings. This is just difficult for me because it's nothing that can be changed right away, or even in the next couple of weeks. It's an ongoing issue and it just might not be able to be changed at all. But we've promised to try to take things one day at a time and have honesty, open mindedness and willingness.
I didn't think of it being a date. We've been together/married for 15 years and really don't call it "dating" anymore. Maybe I can have a greater appreciation of it if I consider the things he asks me, a date. Quite honestly, I wasn't looking forward to the bike ride because I fear falling, wrecking, or just looking like a dingbat riding a bike. I'm not good at it and I'm not in shape at all, I just started exercising a couple weeks ago. But, I did it! I rode most all the way there & back. I had to walk 2 of the steepest hills, but I did do it!