This is probably going to be long, but I really have no one to talk to about any of this.
Two years ago I lost 80+ pounds. Last year following surgery in January and a 6 week recover, I basically lost my motivation, got stressed out and gained it all back plus some.
I have managed to lose around 20 pounds, but I'm now I'm just stuck.
I know I'm eating my emotions, but I can't quite figure out how to deal with the stress.
Dh and I are the caretakers for my elderly parents who are in their 80's. This past year has been rough for both of them with health issues starting to take a tole on their bodies. I'm the youngest and my brother and sister are both over 20 years older than I am. They have both checked out of my parents life and only pay lip service to help and really don't live close enough to help anyway.
Our oldest daughter has Asperger's and severe mental health issues. She still lives with us and has been unable to get a job and does not drive. We have been fighting for disability ever since she was 18 (wow, almost 4 yrs. now) She has doctor/counseling appointments plus other appointments to go to. I have finally told her she needs to start finding someone else to help because she has been in counseling for the last 8 yrs. and I'm getting tired driving 40-60 miles for each appointment. She has been having her grandpa take her to some of the appointments which is helping.
Our son is autistic. He has his good days and his bad days just like everyone else does, but sometimes he has trouble communicating what he's upset with and sometimes we know he doesn't really know. We have chosen to homeschool him and his younger sister.
Our youngest daughter is full of energy and she's a blast to be around most of the time, but she a typical 5 yr. old.
Throw in me working at home, dh working third shift to be home during the day, his elderly grandma needing help sometimes, finacial worries, and my in-laws (which is whole nother book) and there are days I think my head is going to explode.
Dh expressed that he is worried about me. He knows I'm just stuffing the emotions down and he's worried I'm going to make myself sick. He's right. He knows me better than anyone else except my best friend (who's life is so full of drama right now that it makes mine look tame)
If you've read this far Thank you. This is the only place I've felt safe enough to get this all out. I'm not really looking for answers, but maybe some ideas for reducing stress.