I've been doing so well lately that success was imminent. A run of 12 days perfectly On Plan, lots of exercise. Surely I'd drop to 191 any day. But then I went to visit my parents over the weekend, and immediately came home and binged like there was no tomorrow.
What happened to me? I was fine one minute, then I was headed for IHop for dinner, and a giant ice cream afterwards. It just happened with no brain activity involved. I sat myself down to ponder, and I can only think to trace it to how my parents spent my visit trying to shower me with gifts. "Here I have all this stuff in the attic, do you want it? Here's a blender, can you use it? Do you need food? Here's some food. Do you need a new tv? A phone? A car?"
All this gift-bombing put me in a self-indulgent mindset, which may have triggered the binge. Once I started thinking I could let them treat me to a few small things, I started also thinking I could treat myself to whatever my subconscious craved. Which apparently was sweet foods.
I'm disappointed with myself for ruining so much hard work, but hopefully knowing this new fact about myself will keep me from future mistakes.
(Sidenote : Yeah, my relationship with my parents is a strange one. Let's just say I turned down most of the gifts because I know they're "We love you now that you're socially acceptable" gifts)