As I think I have posted before - I thought I was ready a few months ago but I wasn't and lately I have been gearing up again with the thought that at least I was around my earlier starting weight of 243. WRONG. I turned 25 today and discovered that I was 258 pounds.
I want to be someplace very different from here in a year and I am going to think very hard about what I need to do to make that happen. I'd like to announce that I'm going to be 50 or 100 pounds lighter in a year but I'm afraid to do that because I've done it before and dissapointed myself.
But I do promise myself now, publicly, that I will not be one ounce above 258 next year at this time. Not one ounce. This HAS to be the worst it gets. I will hope for,plan for, work for better, but please let this be the worst.