Today was rough, after a week of dealing with illness in our family, and three sleepless nights I just caved today. I surprised myself in two ways.
First, I was surprised that it was so easy to cave. When I started my weight loss journey I was SO POSITIVE that I was going to stick with it - no matter what! I really thought I was invincible, and I got a nasty dose of reality today when I realized that the part of me that wants to use food as a coping skill is not yet completely dead.
Second, I was surprised at the extent to which I caved. I didn't binge eat. I didn't stuff myself. I don't even really think I went over the calories I need to maintain my current weight, or if I did, I didn't go much over. So while the part of me that wants to use food as a coping skill is still kicking, it's dying each day, little by little.
I appreciate the support here, and the testimonials especially. It helps me so much to see what others have been through and achieved.