I am off ski-ing in the French Alps on Tuesday with 250 children. It's a frenetically busy time, and a carb laden experience in the ski lodge. Frankly I have been terrified of the food, and of my emotional state whilst down there. I've been really down, and have been trying to figure out why.
Anyhow I have a busy weekend ahead packing.I Made my life doubly complicated because I decided I would pack a fridge and food. Can't take any chances with the vile carb ridden stodge they will serve at the ski lodge.This was one of my compromises. I have lost weight by low carbing, and low fat, and know what the food is like there.
Plus side though my ski boots now fit a treat! I could never get the buckles done up when I was 300lbs so I used to ski using elastics to hold the boots together.
Shameful really because if I had fallen I would have broken my leg (lucky I rarely fall !) So am wearing ski suit in a size 12, instead of the size 22 of last year (OH YEAH !!)This is all very complex emotionally, and I'm sorry to be rambling, it's just happening that it is all coming out today ! In the previous years I have gone down there, spent ten days with women ALL thinner than me. You don't get very many fat skiers ! I have ended up feeling more and more fat and ugly and have consequently eaten my way through the ten days
They put out loads of cheese at 10pm as a snack !! All local French produce, delicious and utterly fattening
This year will be different. Today I have lost ONE HUNDRED AND TEN POUNDS !!!
I'm going as smaller than several of my colleagues, my BFF is coming to help with the kids, and for the first time in 11 years I weigh less than her ! I'm going to eat well, ski well and play well!
I guess what I'm trying to voice is that the ten days on top of a mountain with 250 kids and 20 colleagues, can get very emotional, and I'm putting on armour to help me fight
the carbs and those emotions that we all know can derail us.
Fortunately there is internet down
there so I can post, but not weigh myself. Probably a good thing as altitude blows you up like a balloon, and you can feel your clothes tightening the higher you go
Sorry this is so long- just needed to let it out