[snowball1]

Icewoman - you come here & vent absolutely any time you need to. You're going through a lot & we're here to support you in any way we can.

BA - Hot-diggity-dog!!! You go!!!! Keep up the awesome work!

Bella - let us know how the dr. appointment goes. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts & praying the dr. can answer some of your questions.

Dana - Why, oh, why did you have to mention cookies! Particularly peanut butter cookies, my sworn enemy! But, hey, you only ate 3... I fear to think how many I would have ate if I had been at your house!!!

Jennifer - I am so glad to hear your feeling so strong & inspired! Your good attitude is contagious! Keep it up!

Derby - your weight loss story amazes me! You have so much to be proud about! Congrats

As for me, I'm doing okay. Stressed out is an understatement. Dh is doing okay, but I miss him terribly & we don't have much of an opportunity to talk (during the first week or two of treatment the counselors try to limit distractions). But hopefully I will get the all clear to visit him this Sunday. I went to a family group on Monday night at the hospital, so got to talk with him for a few minutes then. Last night, I went to a group just for spouses & family members of the patients. It went okay. I haven't gone to an Al-anon meeting on my own yet, & I know I need to make the time... I just don't know when. I got a list of meeting times & places last night, so I am going to try to make it to one this Friday night. Dh is having a rough time, but it is a good rough time, if that makes any sense. He has to work through some of this stuff in order to get into recovery. So it's a good thing, and from what I know from him & his counselors, he is really working at it.

So, other than that, I'm keeping busy, busy, busy. Work & school, plus this, has me stretched to the limit. But just when I think it's too much, God gives me the strength to keep going, & I am thankful for that. I'm also thankful for our puppy (sounds cheesy, but she really is such a light in my life & so much fun to have around. Who can help but to smile when they see her cute little face! )

Thanks, as always, for listening (or reading, I guess!) & being so supportive. Knowing I can come here to talk about this really is soooo helpful. You guys are great

[muelledk]

Bella, I'm glad that you are going to a specialist. I was diagnosed with PCOS about a year ago and just now made it to the specialist. I hope that everything goes well for you, and he should be able to help you with the weight loss problems.

slimdown, three cookies is way better than it could be. Besides, it was 7 pm and you haven't gove over in points! You hang in there, you are doing great.

BA, great job being OP for an entire day, it feels good doesn't it! Keep your groove up, girl!

Jennifer, thank you for what you said earlier! I really needed that.

Sorry I haven't been around this last week or so, I've been really busy with company visiting from Kansas and Texas, a big Halloween bash, and a computer that was hating me! I've had a couple of the best (and most uncomfortable) comments made to me this last weekend. My husband's best friend from college days and his wife came to visit. I haven't seen them in about a year, and was excited about seeing them. She is overweight, just like me, and like me trying to loose the weight. I have lost more than her, but she is making progress. Well, to make a long story short(er), Mike was very complementary to me when he first got here, but then he would not keep his hands of me and even went so far to tell my DH that he would like to, um, swap wifes for an evening. I know that he was drunk, but my goodness, this is his best friends wife!!!! I have never been so uncomfortable in my life and I don't even want to see them anymore, and he was the best man in our wedding. I think that I am going to try my darndest to get back on track. I think that part of my problem was PMS (I get that way before my TOM). I am going to get to my goal weight. I am going to get back OP, and I am going to make my DH proud of me (just as long as his friends can keep thier hands off me).

[Jenniffer]

Goodmorning everyone and Happy Hump Day. Another dreary wet day here and it matches my mood. Just wanna be in bed hiding under the covers. Oh well..just a funk.

But I am still OP and earned 3 points yesterday. No exercise. Just not in the mood. Gonna force myself to today though.

Slimdown..I LOVE PB cookies!!!! I would have eatne alot more than just 3..so you DID do well!

Bella..Nice to see you! Looks like you've been pretty busy. If you are suffering from PCOS...it will explain why you are having a difficult time losing weight. Women with PCOS must follow a diet that restricts carbs. Only then will it be possible to lose weight. I am keeping my fingers crossed for you.

Snowball..Glad you're staying strong and finding some support for yourself. I am sure you miss your husband loads.

Hope everyone else is doing well and smiling...

[Sandi]

Hi all!! It's Thursday and I really can't wait for the weekend. It's been another busy week. I need to kick back and relax.

Saturday we are having a family picture taken. 290 is NOT the weight I had hoped to be. We are going to a good photographer, but she's not a miracle worker.

I wake up every morning and say I am going to try and then I just eat, eat, eat. I have been drinking my water. If it weren't for that, I wouldn't be earning any points at all. I'm tired of only having good intentions.

I taped that oprah show they were talking about on that other thread. Maybe that'll motivate me.

Jennifer - Glad to see you are back on a roll....keep it going!!

Denise - You little hottie you!!

snowball - I am thinking about you. I am very proud of you for being so strong. You have not turned to food during this VERY stressful time. VERY PROUD!!

Bella - Glad your going to see a specialist. I think you need some answers.

Dana - I would have eaten all of them.. Good job. I know you are frustrated right now. Maybe we need to brainstorm and come up with a plan to get back on track. WE WILL NOT FAIL!!

BA - how's it going?

[JML]

Hey, I think I'm getting somewhere after almost 2 years of struggle. I think I can actually feel ribs underneath the thinning blubber. Wow, I have ribs! Gee, that sounds pathetic. The gals where I work told me this week "Jeanne --- go out and buy yourself a pair of pants ---- in YOUR size. Those are not YOUR size." (pointing to my 18's) which admittedly are loose but I thought I could get away with them for a while longer. And people I've known for years are noticing my loss, and people I've met only recently don't think I'm fat. I've never experienced that before. I know I'm still quite fat however and have a ways to go.

[Jenniffer]

Sandi..How did the pics go??

JML...Go buy yourself pants! lol

Hope everyone is smiling...

[Sandi]

Jen - We will get the proofs on Saturday. I think she did a pretty good job of hiding me. Boy isn't that sad.

So it's Monday and after a weekend of emotion, I am trying to pull it all together and put some of your great advice into action. I am doing very well, so far. But the real test will be to see where I am in a week or two.

[anagram]

A size 16 is a great reward in itself. It seems not long ago when you reached 60 lbs down and I was impressed. Not you're at 76 with only 31 to go. Wow! And you kept at it when you had all those problems too.

Way to go, JML>

[snowball1]

Okay, quick, someone get in here & kick my arse! I have been horrible lately. The only even remotely good thing I have done since Saturday is get all my water in I don't even want to share what all I have ate, as I am humiliated But let's just say it involved an entire box of chocolates in one day

I feel so guilty & so terrible about myself. The rational side of my brain says "buck up, Kayla! So you had a few bad days. Move forward from here." The unstable side of my brain says "well, you've already screwed up, might as well keep eating & eating & eating." Unfortunately, the unstable side is winning so far.

I have GOT to snap out of this. I have lost 85 pounds & I refuse to gain that back. REFUSE. I want to get to goal. I want to be healthy. I will not go back down that road again & I will not allow my negative self-esteem to destroy all the positive work I have done so far & ruin my future efforts.

I WILL NOT LOSE THIS BATTLE AGAIN. There is nothing I can do about this morning or yesterday or Saturday. But there is something I can do about right now.

[anagram]

Hugs, Kayla! You have done tremendously well and you have been an inspiration, at times keeping me from dropping the whole thing by your example.

Look a bit at why you're eating now. I'm sure this is a difficult time for you. But you don't need me to tell you eating isn't going to help any. You need to continue being successful on your plan so you can continue to feel good about YOU. And I'm sure to be an inspiration also to your dh.

It's a little hard for me to kick with two bionic knees. But I can give a good, hard VIRTUAL kick so get your arse ready.

KABOOM !!!!

Feel better? Now let's see those points!

[Sandi]

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