Definitely the first month was the hardest, I had the constant depression of having to lose this much weight, why am I fat?, etc.
After awhile, I got stronger. I feel better than I have felt in a long time. I am 32, and this is the first time I have committed to losing the weight as a thirty-something, but I am feeling better at 32 than I did at 22. I am hoping to weigh less when I turn 33 in a couple of months than I did at 23 (I've got about 10 more to lose before that happens). I have noticed that I can't shed the pounds like I could as a teenager or in my twenties (although I have an 18 month old daughter now, and this is the first attempt at losing since being a Mom, so that might have something to do with it). But as they say, slow and steady wins the race!!!
I've noticed that my main roadblock is when I get mired down in the past: Why did I let myself gain this much weight? Why did I spent the majority of my twenties overweight? Why didn't I take control sooner?
I figure that the past is what it is: The past. I'm going to keep pushing, and I am not looking back! I am now making a healthy future for myself, my husband, and my daughter.
Today I feel proud.
