I am feeling good these days. While I still need to lose a large amount of weight, losing 100 plus pounds has made a huge difference in how I feel. Sometimes I forget how miserable that I was at my highest weight. We have had discussions here about how that happens.
Anyway, I got up at 5:00 this morning because I wanted to do some housework before leaving for work. I am a morning person. I was moving rapidly, getting more done in 45 minutes than I once did in an entire day. There on the table was a leftover cake that DH had brought home from something. Without even thinking, I cut a piece to have with my coffee. After a few bites, my brain woke up and said, "What are you doing!" so I dumped the rest of the piece in the garbage disposal.
After 2 years of working hard to change bad habits into good ones, how could I let myself just grab a piece of cake? Will I ever get to the point where I can ignore a cake sitting there? I am so disappointed in myself.
After finishing my work, I went to shower and weighed myself. I was up 2.5 pounds. This is not really fat. I know my weight fluctuations and this is probably a result of my IBS but it got me to thinking. It is so easy to let up a little. Eat a few extra bites. Consume a few extra calories or even a few hundred extra calories. That 2.5 pounds was not a result of the few bites of cake that I ate but it could happen. I could easily regain that 100 pounds. Statistics even say that it will probably happen.
I am recommitting today. My life is too wonderful to throw away for some food. I also have to recognize that I am still too weak to have certain sweets around. I left DH a note telling him that I can't have that cake around and for him to take it to work. If it is still there when I get home, it goes in the garbage disposal.
I don't really expect anything from my friends here at 3FC about this post. It just seemed important to me that I make it. I must never go back!