So, I'm kind of new to posting (actually this is the first time) but everyone seems so encouraging, I thought I might...rant, I guess.
I'm a student in college, second year but it's my first at this big of a university. My roommate, who has also been my best friend since high school, has recently joined a sorority. Great...I get to do all the fun stuff without paying (may favorite
) Last night was an auction-fundraiser for frat boys. It was a really good time, let me tell you. Until, that is, attention started being paid to me. Now, I wasn't the only one who got attention nor was I the only one who is "bigger" than your average sorority girl. But, I just couldn't escape the feeling that the only reason I was getting attention was for my size. It was like I felt like I was being mocked or something. I really don't think that's what it was...but that's where I went. Automatically "they're making fun of me..." so I would turn and try to hide (not so easy when your on the end of a row...the easiest to get to). I was so uncomfortable, but I couldn't let it show as to why.
I've lost almost 20 lbs already, not close to where I need to be but really good, and I'm proud of myself, but I'm still in that frame of mind, and it's really frustrating
*sigh* anyone else feel like this sometimes?
Thanks for reading my rant! I kind of feel like a big baby, but it really helped to post.