So TOM started yesterday, I was doing fine foodwise, though I was moody and felt like crap all day. I tried to go to bed early but couldn't sleep, so I got up and proceeded to eat a bunch of crap. I ate chips, pop, chocolate, and even Hot Pockets (yuck!). Well, this morning I woke up, and of course the scale went up with the poor choices and water retention, and I just generally felt pretty crappy because of the crappy food I put in myself. But here's where the NSV comes in: I didn't feel guilty. My choices were poor last night, but they were still CHOICES. It wasn't something I couldn't control, everything I put in my mouth was a conscious decision. And this morning, there was none of the guilt associated with a binge, I think because it was something that I made the choice to do. I just thought to myself "That was sure stupid. Time to work harder." And I don't feel the need to continue to eat that way. I hope this makes sense to those of you reading this, that you understand why this is an NSV. It seems like such a change. Before I had no control over what I ate, and I felt would feel guilty after a binge and keep eating horrid stuff to drown those feelings of guilt. I feel like I'm able to make conscious decisions about what I'm eating now, regardless of whether they're good or bad, and that I can stand back and evaluate those choices without being clouded by emotions. So for me, this is a victory.
Mini-goal for now: Get back on track!!!
One for every 5 lbs lost
Sounds like you've passed a hurdle that a lot of us face - not only slipping on our healthy eating, but beating ourselves up afterwards. Good for you for not falling into that trap -- definitely a step in the right direction! Very cool!
I get why this is an NSV! I think that guilt we feel when we slip up is what makes some of us continue the binge...whereas if we can just accept it and move on, we're much better off.
Journey Started: June 22, 2010 (233 lbs)
Met Goal: June 22, 2011 (133 lbs)
Weekly Accountability Weigh-in: 142.6 lbs, January 14 2013 Working on getting back to maintenance (135-138)
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