Oh sweetie, this is something you have to do for yourself. No once else can do it for you. Which is a good thing actually. No relying on anyone but number one - you- for something so vital.
In fact, I remember thinking to myself at one point - I was the one who got me into the mess and I was the only one that can get me out.
You don't have to be fat if you don't want to be. It's up to you. You DO have the power to control this. It is your choice to keep on eating the foods which are obviously making you miserable, just as it's got to be your choice to STOP eating these foods.
People ask me all the time how I lost 165 pounds and I tell them very simply that I decided to. I DECIDED to lose the weight. I made the decision, the commitment and therefore I was WILLING to do what's necessary.
Make that decision. Stop settling for an inferior existence. Require more from yourself. Decide to do this once and for all, no matter what and permanently.
Don't dread the changes that must occur - but look forward to them, get excited about them and embrace them.
You have the ability to lose the weight. You can do this. You are capable of it. Give yourself one perfectly on plan day. One. You can do that. Then repeat it. One step at a time. One foot in front of the other. Keep on going - and you'll get there.