Thank you for your replies.
SlimmingSi: Thank you for the ideas for alternate exercises. I think though, that the cartilage research is further along than you imagine. Thereís a doctor in Chicago who has been doing this type of thing already (except heís restricted it to young people in the experimental stage). Heís been at it about five years Ė so I imagine heís pretty close to concluding his research and clinical trials. I tried to qualify for the trials when I first injured my knee, but unfortunately was deemed ďtoo oldĒ for his study. Anyhow, Iím on his patient list Ė so as soon as it opens up to the old folk Ė Iíll jump at the chance.
Findingfawn: There is method to my madness Ė but it has more to do with psychological aspects of dieting than weight loss per se. A total fast (five shakes only with weekly drawn blood work) doesnít really bother me as long as I know itís going to be a limited period. I know I can do anything for a month. Iíll lose about 14 lbs if I stick to it religiously.
By the time the end of the month rolls around, Iíll be feeling sorry for myself. So much so, that when I move to a partial Medifast (5 shakes [or alternate prepared foods] plus a lean and green meal) Ė it will seem to me like a veritable feast. Seriously, Iíve done this before and itís amazing how bountiful a 5 oz. piece of meat and green vegetables seems after having nothing but shakes for four weeks. Iíll do that for two months. And Iíll be happy with my single meat and veggie mealÖbut human nature being what it is, ventually Iíll feel restricted (around about two months).
At which point, Iíll move to a calorie controlled diet. Which will mean more food (instead of less) and Iíll truly feel like Iím in heaven (even though I doubt it will be 1500 calories, if that). It will either be Seattle Sutton (itís my understanding that diet takes the glycemic index into consideration) or Iíll recruit my daughter (who took a required nutrition course for her university degree) to write a glycemic index diet up for me. I have time to think about this aspect.
Thatís my plan for this year. On Jan. 1st, 2011 --- Iíll simply repeat the process and try to lose another fifty pounds.
As insane as this sounds, mixing diets up this way works better for me because after an initial short period of deprivation Ė things seem (due to the fact that more food gets added) to get better as the months go on.
So it goes from approximately 450 calories in phase one, to around 875 in phase two, to somewhere around 1500 in phase three. I estimate Iíll have to do each phase three times.
Thank you for your sympathy. I feel like a ďbad daughterĒ because intellectually I know she couldnít help being the way she was Ė she had borderline personality disorder (actually almost a textbook presentation). There were some DID aspects present as well. And yet, knowing this as I do Ė I am unable to reconcile myself on an emotional level.
I saw a therapist after she died and he told me that it is more difficult to come to terms with the death of a parent when the relationship wasnít good. Itís only been a few months since she passed Ė so Iím not worried that I havenít reached resolution yet. The therapist told me it would take considerable time given the circumstances. But thank you for your kindness and understanding.
If you ever feel you need to vent about your demanding parent Ė feel free to contact me for emotional support.
Lovemyboy: Thank you. Iíll probably make some adaptations as time goes on (as we all do).
I'm looking forward to getting to know everyone and giving mutual support.
"When you get into a tight place and everything goes against you until it seems you cannot hold on a minute longer, never give up then, for that is just the place and time the tide will turn. Success is endurance for one moment more." -- Harriet Beecher Stowe