Here's the deal.
I've been fat for a LONG time, but I've never really eaten a lot. I go weeks eating around 700 calories a day, then have a couple day long binge and that's how I put on my weight.
I've cut out the binging, but I am really struggling to eat enough. I'm managing because I'm stubborn, but will this part ever go away? Will I get hungry?
I hate telling people that I struggle to eat enough because they look me up and down and just snicker or w/e...but it's true. People have always commented on how little I eat (unless in the middle of a binge) and I don't know how to change this mindset.
I don't like FORCING myself to eat because I'm afraid it will turn into a binge, but I have been. I feel like I'm not losing as much weight as I could be because I'm not eating enough. I eat my 'points' (modified weight watchers) but I'm well aware of the fact that 1 point is roughly less than 75 calories, meaning I could have 1 point worth 74 calories or I could have 1 point worth 20 calories...and generally I'm eating the lower calorie portions.
I think I might have to start actually calorie counting in order to eat properly, but I'm afraid it will just bore me and discourage me. It's been a month of eating healthy/exercising with no fudge ups and I don't want to mess it up now!
If you read that (thanks) any suggestions?
Should I calorie count or should I keep on with the weight watchers? How do I force myself to eat MORE without turning it into a binge?