Made my way back
I don't think I've been on here since November. I did not do well with the holidays and it unfortunately didn't stop there.The sad part is, looking back through my food journals from last year, which I kept up with pretty well, I can see when and where the control over my binge eating started to creep back in...it was July. It didn't happen all at once, I still managed to lose and then maintain for several months, but the writing was on the wall.
The good news is, I've been on plan for 8 days now. I've gotten completely away from sugar and anything sweet. The inner two-year old in me has been throwing an all-out temper tantrum...the kind that embarasses the parents and gets looks of horror from strangers, but I woke up today, and for the first time in a week, I was okay with the food I need to eat.
In the past 3 months, aside from regaining over 30lbs, I have stopped running (after working SO hard to run a 5K in November), stopped exercising, my depression, which was practically non-exsistant, is back and almost worse than before. That all is changing now. Now that I've got my eating back under control, I'm going running tonight, walking on my lunch break. I have resistance bands to start back with strength training. And most importanty, I am back to food journaling. This time I'm going to pay more attention to what I write down so I will see the sliding before it gets out of contol again.
It's not that some people have willpower and some don't. It's that some people are ready to change and others are not.
My progress pictures