Okay, I dropped off the planet about a month ago because I decided I had had enough of a bad relationship and left my hubby...I took our 2 kids from NC to Ohio literally overnight...and now our life is completely chaotic. We are staying with my sister and her family but we should have our own place within the next month...and I am torn between missing my hubby and loving him lots and knowing that I made the right decision giving the condition of our relationship and the effect it was having on our children with all of the fighting there.
I have been trying to get back on track but it's hard when you live with someone else and my weight is going up and down like a wild roller coaster one day to the next. To top it off I found out tonight that my hubby has already hooked back up with is ex (who we both passionately hated our entire marriage, now he's sleeping with her ) It is really eating at me and I am even more chaotic in my head now, thinking I feel betrayed and cheated on then reminding myself I left him and have no right to feel that way.
So...how do you move on and get back to some normalcy with weight loss when everything else is spinning out of control?
I have considered forgetting about my weight for awhile but I can't do that. I WANT to be healthier, even more than ever now....my kids need me more than ever now! I am an emotional eater and these are worst emotions I have ever felt, so how do I get back on track? SOMEONE HELP, I feel I am going to lose my mind right now. I can't sleep and my eating is all over the place. I feel like I'm getting depressed and then I have 2 kids depending on me to be strong and make all this okay somehow.
I'm just not sure I am strong enough to handle all this, yet I really have no choice but to do it somehow.