Maybe next week I will make it to onederland......Cheer me on, please?
Ack! I'm nervous and excited. What if it doesn't happen? What if I self-sabatoge? Ack!!!
Okay, mini-meltdown over. Onederland will come in it's own time. I'm doing everything right 95% of the time. I'm making permanent lifestyle changes I can easily live with for the rest of my life.
It's weird, as it gets closer I get scared. And, it's hard to explain why. I think I'm starting to worry about maintaining, although that is a long way off.
Because I've been worried about maintaining I did some research and found out what my 'real' weight goal should be. It's not as bad as I thought. I could go for 140# and not be considered overweight. But, I'm not ready to change my goals just yet. I also will be able to (theoretically) maintain that weight at about 150 more calories than I am currently consuming. And I find that number not so scary--I guess I've been worried that I'd have to live on far less to maintain for the rest of my life.
Anyway, thanks for listening to me ramble on....Onederland here I come!!!!
Thanks for sharing so honestly! I am cheering for you! And so are these guys:
2011(ish) and I didn't understand:
Alice came to a fork in the road. "Which road do I take?" she asked.
"Where do you want to go?" responded the Cheshire cat.
"I don't know," Alice answered.
"Then," said the cat, "it doesn't matter."
~ Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland
I'm making a plan & working that plan. I have direction & discipline! Who knew it was possible?
Under 300 - 299 lbs - MET 4/20/13 * Lowest in 5 years - 274lbs - MET 6/10/13 * Halfway to Goal - 257 lbs - MET 7/25/13 *
100lbs down - 250 lbs - MET 8/7/13 * Lowest in 10 years - 236 lbs - MET 9/19/13 * 75% to Goal - 211 lbs - MET 12/5/13 *
Onederland! - 199 lbs - MET 12/31/13 * Overweight BMI - 196 lbs - MET 1/11/14 * High School Low - 174 lbs * Healthy BMI Goal - 164 lbs