I know I keep saying I'm restarting and then I don't. I don't post but I don't leave, I lurk. I won't give up!
I've gained weight back and it kept going up and I didn't know what to do about it. (highest number I saw this last month was 310lbs and it scared me)
I've realized that I have depression and I need to see a doctor about it, I've probably had it since my last son was born and it was coming out of it and doing great this last year until the incident in August. I'm seeing my counselor still and it's helping me.
Now, I'm starting to heal and get better.
I'm on day 11 of quiting smoking, I used Champix this time and then after I finished those drugs I was on an emotional tail spin (but I've been having lot's of ups and downs since November) and I'm not sure if it was the drugs because I wasn't consistent with them and I didn't even finish the starter pack (14 days), I'm doing well and not craving the smokes.
Last week I started back at the gym, doing weights/some cardio. Working out and doing yoga at home, though I haven't been doing much cardio, that's my plan for this week, to get more of that in.
Next week I start calorie counting again, I'm just journaling right now and trying to watch what I eat and staying away from sweets, which has done me in the last few months.
But it's the frame of mind that was gone before and it's back now, that feeling I got the first six months of this journey, that I can do and I feel strong again.
I'm back up to 303 right now but I'll be back down to 285 again in no time!