Heater, I understand that you feel disappointed. I too had my crazy time goals. Although I didn't actually write them down, I had it in my head that if I started this journey Oct 08, that surely I would be at my goal by June 09--that's 8 months for 60 lbs, less than 8 lbs per month. Doable? Certainly! But my body did not feel that way. I think that when I started I also had alot of doubts whether this was even possible for me. So when I didn't reach certain "milestones" that it was proof that it was not possible for me to lose weight. June 09 came and I was around 150. Not my goal by any means, but by that time I came to realize that I was still 45 lbs down--amazing! The last 15 have taken about 4 months and about 2 sizes.
Where am I going with this? Oh yes! The important thing is that even when I was starting, I FELT amazing! I felt like I had been released from this "food fog" because I was eating better. My body felt awesome because it was getting adequate exercise. I slept better without reflux. I even stopped getting up to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night because I was drinking more water during the day rather that feeling dehydrated at night and chugging a glass of water before bed.
You have made some awesome changes! Soon you will reap the benefits!
day when I stay the same or better yet, LOSE! I say that because when I'm not on a food plan I'm gaining. So look in the mirror, say "I love you you skinny thing!" and go out and face the day. 
