I have been searching around the web for a site to use for support. I remember finding this site originally, goodness it has to be close to 10 yr. ago now. I think I even joined at some point! LOL But, I really need to get my weight back under control.
I have been over weight since middle school. Clinical depression and family genetics and dynamics have not worked in my favor! LOL
I did manage to lose 100 lb. 5 yr. ago, but have since manged to regain almost 120 lb.
I'll spare you the worst of the boring details. But life, stress, financial issues, major depressive episode all have played a part. I think one of the biggest issues, was having my dd diagnosed with major food issues, including Celiac disease. Things I probably should have recognized much earlier than I did. But, I was trying so hard to not to have her deal with the food issues I was raised with, that I missed what was right in front of my face. Thankfully she is doing great, now if only I was.
When I lost the weight, people were constantly telling me how great I looked. There was a few people who didn't even recognize me. I have been so embarrassed over my regain. I am terrified of failing again and it is such a public failure. I don't know if I could handle that again. I have lost all confidence in myself.
When I did lose weight, even though everybody commented on what I looked like and I knew what size clothes I was wearing. When I looked in the mirror I didn't see the difference, I still saw the same fat body I always had. Unfortunately I think the same problem has kept me from recognizing how much wight I have regained. I do avoid mirrors when ever possible though! lOL
I don't even know what plan I want to use or how I am going to attack this weight. I just know I need to do something and do it now!
If you have made it through my rambling, Thank you!