Since Sept. 17th ish I've been doing awful. The weekend of the 19th and 20th was a double whammy for me (we had our 1st son stillborn the 19th, our second son's birthday is the 20th). So I eased up a lil on myself. I was trying to make it through without a complete breakdown. And I did okay.
Since then I haven't been working out though and I've noticed, if I'm not "working out" I don't concentrate as much on my diet.
I've also noticed that when I'm tired I EAT...ALOT! And this week, I've been really, really tired. I got my licensure for doing home daycare so I've been running around getting supplies and the last three days I've devoted to housework. I've taken apart our office to move the the kids bedroom in there and made their room a playroom. I've had to clean out 2 closets, all my cupboards, my pantry, trying to make sure its all following code and completely child safe. I have a giganitc pile of laundry that's accumulated over the last week, I still have clutter filling my living room, I need to do the actually cleaning portion (sweep, dust, mop, etc) and I have our bedroom/bathroom to still clean (not complaining about the cleaning...just verbalizing a mental to-do list). I have an appointment Tuesday for the lady to come check the house.
So, since I'm still overly preoccupied, I'm taking this minute for me. Sometimes I think the walls we hit are just because we're so focused on our jobs, families, committments, that the thought or ability to focus on one more thing (our selves) sends us into overload.
So, for today, and just for today I'm committing to doing great with my diet. Tomorrow is another challenge and I will not worry about working out till I feel I have my diet back in balance!!
