Last night I went out with some friends. Normally on a night like this, I would have already eaten a bunch of food beforehand. I would have gone to the bar and when my friend ordered a chicken tender basket (like she did last night) I would have ordered one as well. I would have had a few drinks (although not many, it is a weeknight!). And I would have come home and eaten some more food before going to bed.
But last night, I didn't give in to temptation! I had a healthy dinner before I left. When my friend ordered her food, I said I had already eaten and wasn't hungry. She said I could have some of her food, but I didn't even touch it (and this is like, one of my favorite meals, sometimes I do plan it in my day, but I didn't want to do that). I had a few drinks (but I had counted them in my day, and this normally isn't a problem for me). Then I came home and went straight to bed!
As I laid in bed, I felt some type of evil spirit take over me, and I wanted to eat everything in my fridge. This is weird, because normally once I get under the covers, I don't have the urge to eat anymore. I think resisting so much earlier that evening lowered my defenses. I almost got out of bed to eat (and I would have eaten a lot), but I didn't. I told myself I could eat whatever I wanted tomorrow. I told myself I could go to the store and buy donuts and chips and pasta if I just didn't eat tonight. And I didn't! (Although there were definitely tears--I felt sooo pathetic!)
I woke up this morning, and the evil spirit seems to be gone, so no need for the trip to the grocery store to get the donuts, chips, and pasta. I hope it stays away!
No binge since 5/10/10
Mini-goal #1: 1st 10 lbs: 10/07/09
Mini-goal #2: 10% of body weight: 4/28/10 (Finally!
Mini-goal #3: 211 lbs (my all-time adult low): 1/26/11
Mini-goal #4: 20% of SW (202lbs):
Mini-goal #5: Onederland!: