I truly need some kind words more than I have ever needed them. Seriously ever needed them in my life. I want to join you all in this thread. I really need help, something has got to change for me.
I posted this also in the 40 something's. I need all the support I can get right now, I don't think I have truly ever felt this down. I am really not sure where to even start again. I truly think I have given up and I just realized my weight is over 100# more than I weighed when I was in college and well over 100 more than I should weigh.
I am 45 years old and need to lose over 100#. I can't find a word to describe how I feel. Stupefied might be a good one.
I feel numb thinking about doing this. It's an incredibly overwhelming feeling I can't seem to wrap my mind around. It's like every time I start thinking about it I sort of just short circuit and my mind fizzles.
I don't know where or how to find the motivation. I have been losing and gaining the same 70# over and over and over again in the last 10 years.
I have not posted in a while and I am so far gone I don't know how I will ever get back on track.
My husband and I just went to Chicago for a visit with family and I felt like a slug the entire time. Everyone running up and down the Navy Pier and Shopping the "Magnificent Mile" and I could hardly move, much less keep up.
I was embarrassed and very angry with myself. Instead of taking charge and eating right I totally gorged myself each and every day using the excuse that it is "Chicago Food".. and well Lord knows I can't "get that here in Orlando". What a joke.
Now I just feel overwhelmed and don't really know where to start. I desperately need a few encouraging words.
I am going in to change my stats. 234.5 pounds today and I am not even 5' 4".