Well it's day 10 for me of no junk food, which right now I'm classifying as no sugared cereal, candy, baked goods, ice cream, sugared soda, or any other sugary stuff, and fast food. Of course there is other food that is junky, but these are the foods that really call my name and made up the bulk of my calorie intake, and I gotta start somewhere.
So here's what I've noticed over the first ten days.
1. Without junk, I really don't care about food. It's zapped all the thunder out of my eating. All the anticipation and emotional charge around food is gone if I'm not eating those foods. I think that's good because food really doesn't have the power it had over me.
2. I've always felt like I was the kind of person that if I banned something from my diet it would make me want that food so much I would binge on it. Now I'm not so sure. I honestly didn't like the taste of a lot of that food. What I really blissed out on was the anticipation
of how I thought
it would taste. Yet I know that if I started eating it again in "moderation", the cravings would start up again. It would be very difficult to quit, and I really don't want to start that whole cycle up again, so I think I'm better off banning it.
3. The past couple of days have been more difficult that the first. I feel antsy, like I have an itch I can't scratch. And what I feel more than anything is lonely
. I miss that food the same way I have missed friends who have moved away. It's crazy but it's true. I really don't know what to do about that. It's a really uncomfortable feeling.