Hi there! I so feel where you are -- your story is so similar to time. I've tried it ALL to find the "magic, secret information" that HAD to be out there. Results -- still fat but lots poorer!
What I finally realized was that I had to change my life, not just my diet. I decided to focus on what and how much I ate, what I did in my spare time, and how I felt about it.
I chose a dietary plan that worked for me within my lifestyle -- for me that was WW, for others, calorie counting, South Beach -- and decided that it would no longer be about the numbers but about compliance to a new lifestyle, one which I could maintain (albeit with effort, at times!) in the long term.
So, it might be a thought to surf this site and check out the threads, find something which "speaks" to you, and get to it. View it like medicine at first, if you have to -- something that you MUST do even if you don't want to and even if you don't feel like it at the time. After a few weeks, it will be routine.
Once I did this, I started adding exercise into the mix. But I had to find something that I LOVED to do. I discovered that despite YEARS of gym memberships that I didn't use, perhaps the gym wasn't the answer for me! I found Hot Yoga, instead (who'd have thought it!!!). And I love it. And you'll find that activity that you love, too. You'll get there, you really will.
I know you can do it because you seem to really want to change your life. Sometimes the first step is the hardest but remember, we ALL had to start SOMEWHERES and we ALL had to take the first step. Just don't stop here -- take the second step, and then another and another. Before you know it, you'll be in a new place. Let us know how it goes!
Last edited by kiramira; 05-18-2009 at 04:51 PM.