Thanks ladies, it's just so frustrating. I know what i want for the wedding but the problem is so much deeper than an upcoming event. I'm so terrified of succeeding and failing! Well, either way I've got a food plan today and so far I'm just sucking it up and sticking to it. I denied going to lunch with work people and am sticking with my healthy food.
Now, a one on one exercise buddy... I think I could be on board with that! Lets do it!
I also agree, don't beat yourself up...I'll try to make an example and not beat myself up either