I'm sorry that I didn't stick with this site. Life threw one heck of a curb ball at me so suddenly. It has thrown my whole world apart. I can't even write what has happens it makes it too real. While I was away I gain and it's only been this last few weeks I've manage to drag myself in to seeing that I can't go on doing harm to my body. The food and the self hatered is not the person I want to be. I will find something good about me. I will be happy even if right now it I think it will never be possible. God give us nothing we can't handle and I know there is a lesson here for me to learn. So that being said thanks for reading my rambling and I'm sorry to those that depended on me here.

I'm glad you're back! Sorry you've been through some hard times. It's hard to not medicate with food. Been there, done that. Now you are making a new start!

Mezmerize, I know how you feel I been through alot myself. I am so glad you are back on the wagon with us. You will start feeling alot better now that you are back! Hope I can be of some help to you. Youf friend,Dumplin

Glad you are back. We are here for you!

Glad to see you back!

Thanks for your post... it was like I wrote it myself. I too came back recently. I had a good solid couple weeks into my eating healthy and then with one piece of cake I threw in the towel. Ever since then I have been shoveling sweet things into my mouth like it's my last day on Earth! ...Even as I was reading your post I was biting into a Tootsie Roll... which I have now promptly thrown into the trash can beside my desk! You are right... we CAN do this.

Thanks again!

Welcome back.

The only thing that matters is that you're back!

Mez!!! You've been sorely missed, woman!

Please know that I'm here for you, anything you need. PM me if you need to talk, OK?


Linda

Thanks everyone! I don't think I've smiled or had a good feeling cry in what seem like forever! I've missed you guys! This is such a wonderful place!
Hugz to each and every one of you!! Now down to business! Today I ate on plan I didn't workout but I am going to baby step this. Tomorrows plan is: Eat on plan and dance two songs. (music can take me away) Wish there was a roller skating rink here that would be so much fun.
Once again thanks everyone and I look forward to help you guys with your journey.

You are here now, that's the important thing. Good luck!

Mez....you have been missed! Glad your back to the unconditional acceptance. Hang in there!