this doesnt have a thing to do with weight loss.
or does it?
i am not sure yet. i do know i approached things differently in response to a yucky situation. it wasnt scary or painful or BIG in respect to what life brings.
at work, we JUST (last night the first night) changed teams. which means who we report to, where we sit, what hours we work, breaks....potentially everything.
my days off changed and who i report to and where i sit. all that doesnt really matter in this story. the time i leave work does. i work in a call center. i was getting off at 10 pm. at 10pm, i clocked out.
even if people were waiting.
now i get off at 10:15 (or when the last person waiting is off the phone).
i left work at 11 pm.
after a 45 min phone call with a man who spoke another language and a interpreter. the call should have ended after 5 min. he asked the same 5 questions over and over and over. the interpreter had to interupt the translation 4 times (which they never do) to reclarify the SAME info we had gone over before. the problem was not the language barrier; i get those calls all the time. he wanted me to make a change on his account that i was not able to do and would not take no for a answer.
the frustration was not due to just that.
my husband is incarcerated and we talk eveynight even if it is for just 5 min. yes, i am home safe, you are there safe, i love
and miss you. see you tomorrow or talk t you then.
we havent missed a nightly call for months and probably closer to 2 years. we didnt get to talk last night. i cried and i knew (and confirmed this morning) he worried.
and yes, i know that no matter when i get off work, that could happen. but if i got off earlier; i would still get home earlier and we would be able to talk.
last night, i didnt eat myself into a food coma. i was so furious that i was fuming and crying. i talked to 2 girlfriends and got over being pissed. and i decided i was changing my team. i have the opportunity cause we have a mini realignment now. just after the big one which is very odd and probably means we will have another one around first of the year.
i made a decision.
i didnt agonize about whether my now coach would be upset or diappointed. i have a bad people pleaser issue. i decided that no coach is worth having if i will be stressed/worried/cranky/angry every night just because some dude decided to call at the last possible freaking minute.
so i will be (hopefully)
on a new team on sept 7th. i still want to discuss with DH again tomorrow when he isnt worried and cranky and i am not either. today at our visit, his mom and sis were there, so not time to discuss making life decisions.
and he was NO help today. when i told him what i thought? his response? i will let you decide on that.
he always has something to say. part of his issue is that he is in prison and has to believe/trust me to tell the truth. which i do 99% of the time and 100% on big stuff.
i knew he would have been worried and i felt bad. but in my defense? i told him it could happen.
but the first freaking night? and 45 min?
but i decided on a plan of action. i didnt worry and make myself miserable. or others either.
i am pretty proud and i sure hope it makes sense?