Thank you for the welcome back! I am going to sort of ramble here in places so forgive me... but I started to respond and it just kind of spiralled. I did however figure out why I was wanting to hide under my desk or in a bag of chips!
The scales were - 1 at the gym, 2 at the Dr's (different rooms), 1 digital one intended for home use (this one and I still are not on good terms really - But even it says I am 8 lbs less than it did last time I had stepped on it so not too bad).
I'm one of those "Ok... I'm curious to see if it moved" types over the "this is my daily/weekly weigh in" types. I find it usually works better for me. Scales are just not something I seem to relate well to (it was this way even when I was a size 6 - at 175 lbs... *shaking head*).
The walk idea is a good one... I usually just head up to the computer. No food upstairs EVER = no munchies.
I do actually plan out my food generally as a weekly/bi-weekly thing because I have to have certain foods and not others but I think I need to push the issue even more.
I think I am just in one of those funks that I go into from time to time. The one where I am tired of cooking, tired of coming up with something new/tasty/inventive, etc.
De-stressing sounds good... Actually I am pretty good overall outside of the wedding and getting annoyed over not making it to the pool to swim as much as I would like or hitting the tub for a long soak. The wedding is down to crunch time and final details so it is a given that this will get a bit more hectic. Actually - outside of the cake tasting (can't seem to avoid it but I can keep it reasonable), his suit, and about 3-4 other things it is all done. The real issue is finding shoes for me...
How sad is it that I won't wear the ballet slipper style because they make my slim feet look fat, but I know I can't wear slim heels because I may have outdoor photos and have to stand/walk int hem and I know I need to find them in the next week to have the time to break them in... And of course I can NOT buy them online because my feet are fussy... WHEW!
Ok... That's it. It is the shoes.
I use to love shoe shopping! DAMN IVORY!
I've been trying to figure out what was setting me off for the last 2 weeks... Should have known it was the shoes. I love shoe shopping usually and can usually find great shoes but every time I have to find something in particular it ends up being a bit of a mess...
As for the food cravings... It is mostly that "summer = ice cream/sorbet/etc." or "mmmm... burgers/hotdogs with chips" instead of steak with salad, or a lovely baked potato and grilled veggies.
For some reason.... even though I know it takes the same amount of time to cook it... It seems so much easier to resort to classic bbq-esque foods at times. And of course the temptation of chocolate bars coming into the house.
Starting over... If at first you succeed a bit then get sick... Get yourself better and start again darn it! AND AGAIN!
Ok! Straight up... First time through... I lost and then got sick and gained more than I had lost. Second time through I lost, got where I needed to... Enjoyed it. Took prednizone (oh lordy how I hate it) and was creeping back toward my worst.
So let's do this (C is stopping point apparently):
1st: S/C/G: 334/280/200 - 2007-2008
2nd: S/C/G: 369/291.2/200 - 2009-2010