So today I stepped on the scale and couldnīt believe it !
I have reached the mark of a 100lbs loss ! The feeling is incredible and I couldnīt have done it without you guys ! So thank you ! For being here, for sharing, for "listening" to my rants ...
Itīs been a long journey, and itīs not over yet, actually I donīt think it will ever be over, itīs a lifetime commitment with myself, with self-discovery ... I know I will always be learning, I just need to make sure I never stop paying attention again.
When I started, 3.5 years ago I was a completely different person, hidding behind a fat suit, completely miserable but also in complete denial, I ate away all my emotions, so I wouldnīt feel a thing, and I didnīt... I didnīt feel sad, or happy, I was a zombie closed up in my own world, pushing everyone away... until my 25th birthday, when I woke up and the picture wasnīt pretty, it still took me a couple months to go from desperation to realization and then action.
And here I am now, itīs been a roller coaster ride, I went from 8 to 80, I woke up with an uncontrolable passion for life, I feel everything now with an amazing intensity, hapiness or sadness... and I wouldnīt change it for anything in the world, because although sometimes the sadness is almost unberable, I feel alive, 100% alive, and when the hapiness comes to visit, itīs nirvana !
So thank you ! Really !