To make a long story short I'm 27 and until a few months ago was a never been kissed or dated virgin. In February I started dating this guy and it got intimate fairly quickly. I thought things were going well and indeed this past weekend was very nice. Woke up yesterday with him to cuddles and kisses and spent the day touring wineries. Then tonight I get home from a particularly crappy day at work and over yahoo instant messenger he dumps me. His only reason is that there is "no spark" for him. So I go from waking up holding him and being held Sunday morning to being told Monday night that he never wants to see me again. I'm lost, scared and confused right now. I went 27 years without anything and now I get two months of feeling like a normal, desirable woman. Now without warning it's over and I don't know what went wrong so I sit here blaming myself and my inexperience and stupidity. Right now I don't think it will ever be safe for me to care about anyone but then again I had to wait 27 years for one man to want to date me so perhaps it will be another 27 before another does. When I count it all out it was only 5 nights and maybe a dozen times of being intimate we actually spent together due to living 200 miles apart. It doesn't seem like much but it's all I've ever had. I feel woefully behind compared to every other woman my age on the planet and am wondering if this will be all I can achieve.
My weight loss efforts have been a nightmare over the last few months. Nothing I do works and I haven't lost an ounce. Now I feel like I just want to eat and I eat when I'm sad and unhappy. I skipped the gym tonight. I never skip the gym. But I was so hurt I couldn't go. I'm not losing weight at all and now to top it off I'm back out there being fat and single. That and i'm supposed to be graduating from school soon but am struggling to pass my classes, my job is stressful but not sure I am going to find a new one that pays decently.
Nothing is going right but I really don't want to gain weight although my body refuses to lose any. Any advice for me? I just want to curl up in a ball and sleep.