I feel like a failure... maybe that's what's keeping me from continuing. At this point I've stayed still for far too long... since about October. At the end of the day, I'm just not ready to give up the things I love to eat.
I should be more positive. After all, since October, I've maintained somewhere between 275 and 272, and if I went above that, I always got back down. My body seems comfortable at 275, and I'm not engaging my body to get uncomfortable with it. I also have the potential thyroid problem looming overhead and I don't feel like I can do anything about it without health insurance.
So far I've accomplished about a 35lb loss, maintaining that loss for 6 months by eating smaller portions and very sketchy exercise. I have stopped calorie counting... so I know I can eat "intuitively" to maintain, but not to lose. To succeed, I know I need to track what I am eating and aim to take out the sugary desserts (they are my downfall, I'd say for the most part everything else I eat is pretty healthy and could show some improvement, but I am generally careful/conscious about it) and get my butt moving in a formal exercise plan.
I would say that I've been a bit depressed for the last 6 months. John has been out of work all this time (my hubby, we just got married March 22nd), and things have gone from bad to worse to OK. I shouldn't complain too much because we've certainly been blessed with a lot of things to make him not working something we can manage, but if gas is really going to $5 a gallon this summer, it sure would help to have another income. So that among other things including the whole weight thing are keeping my spirits down and I don't know what will get me back to the point where I am ready to find a new plan that will work for the next 35lbs or so.
I see everyone who is successful on this site and envy their drive. I wish I had it.