I feel like I'm yammering about the same old stuff...so I'd like to first apologize to anyone who thinks I am.
This is something I'm feeling kind of angry, and very scared about, and I'm going to need your help to keep myself a priority.
So many of you were here for me when my mom lost her home. I fell off track and gained all of my previous weight loss back because I needed to focus all of my attention on making sure I did everything I could to help my mom get a new home. She now has a beautiful new house, and I'm am incredibly proud that I helped to raise enough money for the deposit/down payment.
This time I want to do everything I can to help her fight for life itself (she was diagnosed with lung cancer on Tuesday).
My question is: HOW on EARTH do I continue to keep myself and my health a priority, while all of this is happening????
I KNOW it's more important than ever that I am healthy and strong. I KNOW my mom wants this for me more than anything. How do I be a mother myself, a wife, an employee, a runner of household....and still do anything and everything I can for my mom, AND continue on my path to better health???
My own stuff is the easiest, and most natural thing, to let go of from this list...but I know I can't do that..I'm just so afraid of what the near future holds for me.
I feel so selfish for even thinking about this, but it's a major concern on my mind right now.
I had four bad/off days (including Easter) and am now back on track...I just really want to stay on track, you know???
I'm so sorry for the rant/repetition
Linda