So... yesterday after work I went to Wegman's to pick up some groceries and figured I would grab a freshly made sub for dinner. And what did I do? I ordered a FULL 14" sub. Why not the 7"? B/c you could get double the food for only $2 more. B/c I fooled myself into thinking that I would eat half and save the other 1/2 for tomorrow. Turkey, ham, and roast beef. With Mayo. And Cheese. And then I made the awful decision to buy TWO
big chewy choc chip cookies.
Went home... AND ATE IT ALL. And it was DELICIOUS. But... but... BUT!!!!! I HAD GOOD INTENTIONS! I unwrapped the sub, put half on the plate, put the rest in the fridge. I tried not to rush through eating it... I really sat and enjoyed it (did I mention it was DELICIOUS???)
And then I realized that tomorrow was a Friday and I couldn't eat meat. And the sub would get gross by Saturday. So I ate the rest. Makes perfect sense, right?
And then I ate one cookie. Then I watched LOST... and ate the OTHER cookie.
And then I looked at the back of the cookie wrapper. And my eyes bugged out of my head. EACH COOKIE WAS 420 CALORIES!!!!!!!
oh ... my ... god.
I have done? Gotten the 7" sub. No mayo. Gone home and put my own light mayo on it. Not gotten ANY cookies.
And I would have had a substantial and filling and DELICIOUS, guilt-free meal that would have totally fit in my calorie allotment for the day.
But I didn't. ::sigh::
I typed it all into fitday and see that I more
than made up for only eating 600 calories the day before (not on purpose... been having relationship woes and got distracted and didn't get dinner in). But 3300 calories is inexcusable.
However... this is honestly only the 2nd or 3rd major screw up since I started this journey Jan 1st. And I have been doing remarkably well and haven't had CRAVINGS or whined about what I COULDN'T have.
And truly? Honestly? This wasn't a binge. It shocks me that this was 3300 calories... I can't even begin to explain what a "bad day" was like before I started this journey. God... I certainly wouldn't have thought that eating a full sub was HORRIBLE for me. not back then. So I guess when you compare THIS bad with my FORMER "bad"... I guess this is a step in the right direction. I could have messed up WAY worse than I did.
But still... I'm disappointed that I could have made a truly SIMPLE and EASY decision... and made up excuses and KNEW that I wouldn't be able to handle the results.
ME? Turn away a whole portion and only eat half? It's NEVER been possible. Why did I think I would be able to so soon??? Argh.