I am new to the forum. I have heard about you guys, and have briefly checked out the site before. But I finally decided to register and really try to find a supportive group of online buddies. I hope I can find that here
My name is Tiffany, I am going to be 30 (
) sometime this year.
I have never been "Skinny". I was athletic in highschool, but still was a bit bigger than other girls, tho I still say it was muscle
I got married young, it didn't work out, he was controlling and would actually dictate gym hours, etc. When I left him, I found my wonderful husband - with whom I have been with for almost 9 years now. I think that finding my new husband, who loved me no matter what gave me the room to rebel a bit from my ex gymloving hubby.... and because of that I stopped working out and just stopped caring about what my body looked like.
Then I had kids, we have 2 girls together (age 6 and 3) and since then, things have gone drastically downhill. I have gained weight consistently since having my first daughter.
A couple of years ago I joined weight watchers for the first time (meetings and online support) and I lost about 30 lbs. I was doing well, tho it was mainly eating right, I was not doing any physical activity. I got bored or distracted... and just tired of it. I started skipping meetings and got off program. I gained most of the weight back.
I joined again... but just did not have the same enthusiasm as the first time and I admit I yo-yo'd on it for a while. I gave up because it just didnt seem my heart was in it. Since then I have gained an additional 60lbs.
So here I am, 3 years later and at my heaviest weight yet (266lbs!). I have 2 daughters that we choose to raise them in a very hands on/gentle way. While I know this is best for all involved, I admit it leaves me feeling drained and exhausted many days (they are high energy and spirited all day every day lol). Because of that, along with some other things I tend to kick myself over, I have a horrible habit of emotional eating.
So here I am, feeling like I am about to turn 30 and disliking the way I look and maybe myself a bit. I need to deal with the eating and bad habits, but I admit I probably have to face the emotional/stress eating too.
I think in the past I have looked to "plans" to be some magic pill for me - I now realize that I can't just toss money and go to a meeting. IF I want to do this, I need to put in the effort. So, I want to start off slow and on my own ... but I obviously need to track food and excercize. Does anyone ave a favorite site/program that you like for this? I mainly need to deal with my daytime eating, I have a habit of skipping breakfast and not eating til 2pm and then just going a bit nuts.
Thanks all for listening to me babble on and I hope to be able to find a little niche here for me!