Welcome Amyjoy.
I'm so glad you've found 3FC and I'm so glad that you have gotten fed up enough with your weight to go ahead and make the change to a healthier lifestyle. I felt EXACTLY the same way as you. Fed up, embarassed, held back, as if life was just passing me by.
I eat very frequently now. I just switched the foods that I eat. I went from ice cream to fat free/sugar free yogurt. From tons of rice to loads of veggies. I started cooking differently - no more frying. Lots of grilling, sauteeing, broiling and roasting. I went from pizza and pasta, to fish or chicken and salads.
And of course, you are not alone. We're all in this together. Good luck to you.