I think I'm finally, after 12 years, leaving my food-induced excile from my life.
Do you ever feel like life has passed you by while you were too busy worrying about your next snack, if someone else was going to take that last piece of cake, fantasizing about your next drive-thru "treat", etc.
I've been sticking well to my self-made plan for almost a week. My sugar cravings are deminishing and even the "sugar shakes" are getting better.
But, today was like a light went on -- I just keep looking around like everything around me is brand new -- playing with the kids is more enjoyable, I can finally focus on the things I need to get done (without constantly thinking about when I will be alone so I can devore whatever snacks are left that I haven't eaten).
It's like my focus is back on track. My priorities are shifting away from what I eat, when I eat, what I weigh or (don't weigh) and when I can have my next binge. I swear it's starting to be exciting to me to get up every morning and actually have control and plan the day ahead. I hope this feeling stays, grows and overwhelms me like binge eating used to.