Mary,
I'm so sorry! It's so painful and frightening when we lose people who are so young! It always makes me face my own mortality.
I think that the main reason for me starting this journey all over again is because I just turned 30, and I'm scared. My dad died when he was 44.
Please take care of your heart, and vent here all you need to...we are here for you. Hearing this makes me feel even more committed to succeeding in this battle.
Linda