Yes I know, we are all losing weight together, but it's New Year's and I think it's high time that all of us band together on it - officially I dunno about you, but I'm soooo glad 2007 is O-V-E-R! It was a really tragic year for me, I hate to say. One thing after another, major major events that in a lot of ways I still grieve, and probably always will. But I also believe 2008 holds a lot of promise...I don't know why I feel that way, but I just "know" deep down that all of us are going to experience monumental positive things this year, and losing weight is one of them!
I haven't updated my ticker, but I have lost about 10 pounds in the last two months or so. This time last year, I made a resolution to stop smoking, right. My last day was January 4th, 2007. Sure I'm still using the commit losenges and have to detox every now and then, but I have NOT touched one stinky cigarette in one year (well that one year will be in 3 days ) And I always said if I could do it, anyone could.
But isn't that the same secret to weight loss? Come on....I had to sit down, make a plan, and stick to it, despite the cold sweats, shakiness, sleepless nights, withdrawal terrors... I stuck with it, and I didn't look back. It's a battle every day, you know. I told James the other night, that I STILL to this day, when I go to a convenience store, see cigarettes and for a split second think to myself, "man that would be great to smoke" but the difference is not the temptation; it is the resistance to the temptation....
And I realized something. We all are going to be tempted. In many ways. Maybe by our family. Our friends. Our (shudder) kitchens or (even worse) the evil Krogers Signature store on our Krogering escapades. That evil junk food voice calling "man I taste so good...come on ya know ya want me..." Eek!!! But what made the difference for me in quitting smoking is, I didn't give in. Ladies I didn't quit smoking cause I didn't enjoy it! I did, that was the problem. I quit because I knew I wanted to be healthy. And the similarity is so uncanny...we want to lose weight because we want to be healthy. It's not cause we don't enjoy the food; we do, and that is our problem! We just need to be in this for the long run...no turning back. No looking back.
Let 2008 be your resolution to yourself, and no one else. If you have been on track, why not reaffirm your commitment? And if you've fallen off the bandwagon, let this be the day you jump back on. And don't look back. For heaven's sakes, don't look back.
I personally have tossed my scale. Well, it's here, I just have no clue where it is hahaha! The way I see it, it doesn't matter what I weigh; if I am not happy with my body and what I see in the mirror, that number is not going to change my perception. Not being able to feel the folds on my back; now that will change my perception. Not being able to use my stomach as a drink coaster; that'll do it too. Not getting sores between my thighs cause they rub together anytime I move; yep "that'll do donkey, that'll do."
Guys, I used to be a model; goodness, I was even Miss Houston in the late 90's. I KNOW that gorgeous girl is somewhere deep inside me (okay wayyyyyy deep down there, I think I smothered her!). I look at that picture every day in my pageant dress and crown, and think to myself "girl you can get there again". I was 36-24-34, and a slim size 3-4. These days? I have no idea! I am too scared to measure myself, and frankly, I wear elastic pants cause pants with buttons are soooo uncomfortable for me, so I have no idea what size I truly am. All I know is, that girl in the mirror? She's such a stranger to me....and I want to see the old me in that reflection again.
Sure this is a long post, but I think this is a long time coming, to all of us. I don't know about you, but me? I'm gonna do what I did on January 4th, 2007 when I quit smoking...I'm going to jump on and not look back. And no matter what, I'm not giving up.
Okay so you want specifics? Fair enough... My goal is a minimum of 50 pounds. That's about a pound a week give or take. And you know something? I'm gonna do it!!!!
How's about you? What is your commitment? What are you going to do - for yourself?
Happy New Year everybody - let the good times roll!!!!!!!!!
Holli