I've been in and out of 3FC for a little over a year now, but unfortunately off the site and out of my healthy lifestyle for several months now. I've had a lot of changes in my life, and the worst has been starting to wear scrubs daily for a job in a vet's office - I didn't notice just how tight my clothes were getting!
I knew I was gaining weight over the last 6 months or so since I moved in with my fiance (eating with/like a guy is a BIG mistake!), but I never realized just how bad it was until I hopped on the scale this morning. I'm almost 40 pounds heavier than I was a year ago!!! 230! What the heck was I thinking??
All of my "I'm not THAT fat" excuses over the years are suddenly slapping me in the face.... "at least I can still wear 'regular' clothes" (even if they're XL/size 16-18 and barely fitting).... "at least I'm still active - I can still run 3 miles a day" (until I stopped running.... "at least I still have a waist and a generally good hourglass shape"...."at least I don't have to lose a lot of weight - not like 100 pounds or anything"....
Alright. All those excuses are suddenly bouncing back to me - I now AM
"that fat." I have 100 pounds to lose. I've completely lost the fitness level I've always maintained - I haven't taken steps toward any deliberate exercise in months. I'm not beating myself up, but I'm finally seeing myself clearly for the first time in forever (I've always had a "positive" image - possibly so "positive" to be deluding myself!)
I want to be healthy again. I want to be thin for the first time in my life. I want to be healthy to start my life together with my fiance and to start a family together. Most importantly, I want to establish healthy habits to carry through the rest of my life. I know how to do it - I just need to get going!
Any support is welcome - I never thought I'd be in the 100-pounds-to-go club, but I've always read this board - you guys have some of the greatest advice and upbeat people! Here I go!