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Old 12-01-2007, 08:23 PM   #1
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Two days into going off sugar, and I feel like an addict in withdrawl! There are some stressful things going on right now and hubby got in late, everyone was starving, I was fighting really hard not to just run out for pizza and woof down all the cinnamon breadsticks possible...I let hubby choose and he said he'd make steak, baked potatoes, and a salad. I told myself that's great, I can have a big salad and cut up some of the steak on top (not cooked in grease or anything), and be on plan.

BUT, in the back of my head I was dying for the ice cream out in the deep freeze. We didn't have foil to bake the taters, and the lettuce had gone bad, so off I go to the store...alone, and thinking of a dozen donuts, which in this mood I would normally eat half the box on my way home!

the drive there, my thoughts were nonstop insanity! I was first on a high, so happy that I was going alone and could buy donuts, eat them on the way home, and no one would know. Then I reminded myself I am not eating sugar, and I felt sad almost. Okay, so I'd have those sugar free cookies then...but I knew I would eat the entire package and it would be just as bad. I thought maybe I'd stop at McDs and just get something, but the line was very long and I knew it would be WAY off plan.

Got to the store telling myself I could do this, I could make it out without the sugar fix. I went straight toward the candy aisle, turned away and went to the produce section instead, taking deep breaths and saying "I can do this." Looked at the bagged lettuce, found one that didn't look half rotten, and saw the deli made mexican bean dip that I have always loved. Put it in the buggy, thinking I would have that with chips. Back of my head screaming to read the ingredients, but I didn't want to do that, I walked away telling myself it's just beans and cheese, it's fine.

Went for the foil, guilted myself into looking at the bean dip label...second ingredient was hydrogenized lard no longer even looked appetizing, walked it back to the produce section, put it down. Stood there like an idiot wondering where I could go, what could I get...I felt like a cocaine addict standing on a corner waiting for the dealer to show! It was like a panicky feeling that I could not leave without something sugary, something sweet.

Then I remembered fresh blueberries were BOGO this week, picked up two little pints, and set my mind to walk straight to the register. Had to pass a large display of donuts on the way, literally turned my head away so I didn't look. Stared at donuts on the next aisle over as I checked out, all the while screaming that I want them! All of them!

I got out of the store with just the blueberries, but felt very frustrated and tense...and I had a headache coming on, literally!

Final dinner: large salad with really good lite vinegar dressing and half a small package blueberries for that sweet taste.

I realize now that I didn't want the donuts, it was like I felt I NEEDED them, they were what I always turned to on stressful nights. Someone please tell me this gets easier at some point...or am I just insane???
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Old 12-01-2007, 08:32 PM   #2
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oh Purple - we have been there. I have done and felt exactly what you do! Sometimes I feel like a grocery store is a video game good guys (fruits and veggies) vs the bad guys (donuts)- I love going to the grocery store - it is an actual high for me. Just being there makes me feel naughty! I'm so sick, I swear.

I can't tell you it's going to get easier b/c my journey begins - again. However, I do know many people on this board that will tell you it gets better.

Hugs to you sweaty! You said you walked out with just the blueberries - but did you get the tinfoil?!
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Old 12-01-2007, 08:50 PM   #3
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yes, I did get the foil, some spinach/lettuce mix for the salad, two big tomatoes, and a loaf of WG bread. Just meant with only the blueberries, no donuts! I am feeling better now, but still intensely craving sugar, it's like my mind keeps drifting through all these horrible foods and screaming "GIMME NOW." I am going to exercise, take a hot bath, and go to bed!!!

Oh, and my kids both decided they wanted what I was having! 5 yo daughter had a salad just like mine...and she usually will only eat ranch dressing, but she took a bite of my salad while I fixed hers and said "what did you put on it? I like that" so she ate my healthier dressing as well, I was so proud in that moment. My 3 yo would only eat tomatoes and cucumbers...about normal for him...I wonder where he got his appetite!!!

This was my mental state in that store though.... Pathetic, I know.
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Old 12-01-2007, 09:13 PM   #4
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Yes, it does get easier. Once you get the simple sugars out of your system, you will stop craving them. In fact, I had no desire to eat cheesecake (my favorite) at Thanksgiving. I went to a funeral luncheon yesterday, and the cake looked very unappetizing. I'm not sure who this person is that has replaced the "old me", but I really like her and hope she hangs around a while. I still eat a bit of dark chocolate once or twice a week, but it doesn't seem to trigger a desire for anything else.

When I first started, I actually put the donut box in the dishwasher at work while I ate my lunch. I couldn't stand smelling them and knowing that I shouldn't eat them. Now, I walk right by the box and I'm not even tempted to lift the lid.

So - yes - hang in there - it DOES get better!
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Old 12-01-2007, 09:20 PM   #5
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wow you get a medal for only getting blueberries!!! that "mood" is the hardest beast of all to tame

i know a lot of people say it gets easier, and sure it does, just even from habit - but for myself, I know i'm never going to NOT LOVE donuts or cheesecake LOL, I just have to leave them in the "maybe some day" category for now and continue along!

i KNOW you can do this now - if you can struggle through that kind of day/mood, you can do it the next time, and the the time after that, and the 10th time after that !!!1

yay for you!!!
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Old 12-01-2007, 09:31 PM   #6
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Wow. I'm impressed. You did such a GREAT job! to you!

You are NOT alone in those thoughts, and you are NOT alone in what you did. I too have placed things in my cart only to read the ingredients a few aisles later and put it back... I too have gone in and had to practically crawl past things that I love in order to get away without picking them up...

Be PROUD of yourself for your great choices! You're doing it!!!!
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Been there, done that!! Sorry I can't give you an answer except to say it really does get better, the more you lose the more encouraged you will be. I know all about sugar before I got my act together I would drive to the store and get 4 donuts and 3 candy bars and they would be gone in half an hour. And that is how I found myself at 206 pounds, maybe more I avoided the scale at that time. You have made a very good start, you CAN do it !
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Old 12-01-2007, 09:40 PM   #8
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I had a bunch of these experiences when I was first starting to eat better. Frankly, it always makes me feel a bit better to know that others used to eat on the way home and dump wrappers so that nobody would ever know.

I found that these episodes became a lot less frequent if I never let myself get to the point of being crazy hungry. I get too hungry and I get a real manic thing going where it is a real battle to make a good decision. Had you eaten enough all day before this happened? If not, that may be a good thing to pay attention to in future.

Great job on the berries. It will get easier.
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Old 12-01-2007, 09:53 PM   #9
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You did an amazing job and should be VERY proud!! Hi, my name is Susan and I'm a sugar addict too I've noticed for myself that after probably two weeks the urge goes away but for whatever reason if I eat even a french fry/M&M, I'm right back where I started. You set an excellent example for your kids. The donuts/MCD's would have tasted good for two seconds but tonight you can go to bed without feeling bloated, feeling well and you'll feel great in the morning.
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Old 12-01-2007, 11:47 PM   #10
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It's really weird. I used to do the SAME thing. Fight myself not to get sweets. Heck I still do sometimes. And when I stop and think about those days when I used to go in and get the donuts, cookies, candy bars, ice cream and eat them ALL in one night, sometimes I miss it. I don's miss the taste as much as I miss something emotional about it. The feeling of giving myself anything I wanted. The sense that no one could tell me what I couldn't eat. I miss that "freedom" sometimes but then I realise the real freedom is in living a real life, moving, being healthy and well and not centering my existance around junk food.
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I can't say if it gets better (I'm a sugar addict too), but I was nodding and laughing and cringing with everything you wrote because I have so been there. I congratulate you on leaving that store with blueberries. (I've been known to go to 2 different stores for a sugar fix because I didnt' want one checker to see everything that I planned to buy). I know that insane feeling and what it takes to let those moments go by. Good for you.

After about of month of high fiber, whole foods, veggie+fruit eating, I can say that something has changed for me. I do still crave sugar, but it's....... a lot less intense and the cravings don't last very long. I've also found prunes and dried fruit, which I don't eat a lot of but they are better than cookies, cake, or icecream. Thanks for posting your supermarket experience.
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It's really weird. I used to do the SAME thing. Fight myself not to get sweets. Heck I still do sometimes. And when I stop and think about those days when I used to go in and get the donuts, cookies, candy bars, ice cream and eat them ALL in one night, sometimes I miss it. I don's miss the taste as much as I miss something emotional about it. The feeling of giving myself anything I wanted. The sense that no one could tell me what I couldn't eat. I miss that "freedom" sometimes but then I realise the real freedom is in living a real life, moving, being healthy and well and not centering my existance around junk food.
My husband and I were talking about this kind of issue tonight. Sugar is not necessarily our weakness, but we used to have these meals where we just ate and ate and ate! I think you're right that there is something about giving ourselves what we want. Except, I think it's only a substitute for something else. I do miss that "freedom" sometimes, to eat whatever I want. But I sure don't miss the physical feelings afterward, not to mention the obesity! I am much freer now.

Anyway, hang in there, if you stick with it it does get better. But if you're like most of us (all of us?) you'll never be perfect. We live in a world where just too many opportunites present themselves...
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Way to go!! What you did was AWESOME! I know how hard it is when the cookie monster starts screaming, but you just turned your head and walked away! That takes enormous strenght!
I have no doubt that it will get easier, but you should be so proud of yourself for sticking it out when its hard.
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WTG, purple firefly. I too am addicted to sugar, and as everyone else said (but I'll say it again, just so I hear it myself) it does get easier. I cut out sugar and white flour based foods, and those first few days were BRUTAL. But really, after even just a week or so, I noticed such a huge difference in my outlook and appetite. I was no longer no "needy." I was way happier. The funniest thing was, I didn't even think I WAS addicted to sugar, until I tried giving it up. One trick is though, when I am really craving something sweet, I eat some green grapes. That does seem to tide me over.
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I've had similiar instances like that as well Purplefirefly. Just the other day in fact. I somehow escaped the stores and got home and ate a big salad with balsamic vinegar. A VERY big salad that is.

You should be sooo very proud of yourself. You've done a GREAT thing for yourself. You fought the urge. That's what it's all about. We have urges, but we don't HAVE to give into them. Yes, it's hard. But it will get easier and those urges will become less and less and now you know that you are more then capable of getting through them with no damage done. That can give you confidence that you can do it again and again, if need be. Congratulations and keep it up, just keep it up.
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