I really let things get to me in the last month. The break up with my boyfriend has been pretty devastating among other problems in my family. It has basically been the month from Heck.
I lost 8 pounds since October 24th and then regained 6 of them since then. I was doing really well when he dropped the bomb. It was out of no where and the weirdest thing is he can’t let me go with a clean break.
I decided last night almost one month later. I am pulling a Scarlet (O’Hara) and saying “I can’t worry about this now…. I will worry about it tomorrow.” I woke up and ate properly and plan on changing my eating and exercising lifestyle. I am joining the gym today at the base hotel and starting to go back during the week and on Saturdays. I have to get my life back. I think the exercise will be good for the frustration and hurt. Getting in there and sweating it off so to speak will help me combat this deep dark depression I feel.
I am tired of crying and sobbing over him and his choice. I can’t let it go on. One of my friends says it all comes in waves and just knocks you over …..well….I am trying very hard to think of things that will make it better and keep my mind off of him and his bad choice. I have a great life and many options ahead of me. I did absolutely nothing wrong with him and this choice was all his. I will get some time for myself and get it all straight in my head when vacation come around in December.
Thanks for letting me vent!