Thanks so much you guys. Your responses brought tears to my eyes. You make me feel so special, so needed and so worthwhile. This really is the best place for support ever!
A few of you said I wasn't a failure, I thought "I never said I was a failure", and I had to go back and read what I said and sure enough, that's what I said. It's funny that sometimes we don't even hear ourselves. I think I have some negative internal dialog that I am not aware of. I am going to try and become more aware of my internal dialog so I can turn it around.
As I was reading different posts yesterday, I realized that I need to find a way to make this the most important thing in my life. So I started my list. I printed it off, laminated it and hung it on my fridge. I have one here at work too.
Today is NOT a good day to start again.
1. I have a cold
2. Sunday is Jacob's Birthday party
3. All next week I am on vacation with my foodie husband.
4. Next week we are going to covered bridge
But I am a logical person and when faced with a decision, I usually make a pros and cons list. Looks like there are 29 items on my pros list and only 4 on my cons, so that's that.
Plus, TOO DAMN BAD! There will never be a good time or day to start this. This needs to be for life and there will always be another vacation, holiday, celebration or illness. I cannot and will not wait.
I am starting on a WEDNESDAY...today...at 343.8 lbs. That's a new high for me. I have had a lot of new highs this year.
I have all the tools I need to have a successful journey, I just need to start (today) and be consistent. I think I will start chiming in on the "one reason" thread daily. Maybe that will help me be more consistent.