Being up to 148 extra pounds on my frame was never healthy, I think what was worse than any physical pain my choices were causing me, was the constant view that society had on me. Almost as if I was a "second class" citizen, the condescending attitude is was gets me. I know no one can make you feel inferior without our consent. Like many of you, I have had some pretty nasty, inhumane, and degrading things said about me because of my weight.
I know many people judge overweight people as somehow less-than, healthy sized people. At your heaviest, how did you keep yourself from buying into that bs-keeping a positive attitide and healthy self esteem?
I had an OMG moment looking into the mirror and not recognizing the reflection back. It was like a body filled with air that you can pop. It made me so incredibly sad and upset--I did this to myself. I really do want more out of myself than to live with my "I really let myself go version of myself." I wonder what made me think this is okay? Probably because I strayed away from mirrors and the scale for so long. This is just unacceptable. Sorry for my long post. I hope someone can relate. All I can do is to use it for more motivation to shrink and get healthier.